So Many Questions
November 16, 2009 subjor
For one, this journal entry has like 100000 questions, so answers are going to be shorter and possibly doubled up. So yeah, enjoy. And I’m eating pizza while I type! NOM NOM NOM!!!!
1 – Does being enslaved set you free or dehumanize you?
2 – Dehumanizing: Is it a goal? Is it something that is progressively worked towards?
I think my slavery sets me free (if I had to pick one of those two). If I could say anything, I think it mostly just makes me happy and I love it. I lets me be myself and have fun, and it frees me from the responsibility of having to deal with some things in life. As for dehumanizing, no I don’t think that at all describes my slavery nor is it a goal. I’m still me and I’m still a unique person. I’m just a uniquely owned person. My ownership doesn’t really fit into a category. It’s unique and fluctuating.
3 – Are you part of a “loving” M/s dynamic or not?
Yes! I love my Mistress more then anything in the world and she loves me. A non-loving M/S would just be play-partners for me.
4 – Is your slavery a gift or just part of who you are?
um… part of me? I only give my slavery to people I love and respect. Being someones slave is as much my gift to them as it is there gift to me. It’s a mutual thing.
5 – As a slave, do you feel you do/should have any rights outside of begging release?
Yes and No. There are certain things that I need to stay happy and sane, and I have those things in my relationship. If I didn’t have those things I couldn’t be in a m/s relationship. So yes I feel I have a right to them. But it’s more of an unwritten right, because Mistress could take them away if she really wanted, but she wouldn’t because she loves me.
Basically the point is that a slave shouldn’t choose a Master that wouldn’t freely give them the rights the need, because it won’t work.
6 – Are there ever things that happen in your dynamic that you consider unfair? Why?
um….. not really? Life is unfair, but it’s not my Mistress’ fault.
7 – Do you consider other slaves your brothers/sisters in slavery?
Not really
8 – Is LDR or online relationships in the M/s dynamic possible? Why?
No, maybe a little, but mostly no. It’s too… complicated of a connection to form without ever meeting. You can do it to a degree online, but it’s not the same.
9 – Should slaves have important responsibilities (i.e- working, keeping track of finances, etc.)?
Yes, slaves are people too.
10 – Is a submissive personality required to be a slave?
Yes, oh course
11 – Has slavery made you co-dependent? How do you feel about it?
By co-dependent, I’m taking it to mean that my Mistress depends on me as much as I depend on her. Then yes, we have a very co-dependent relationship. We both have tasks that we take care of and without each other we couldn’t function very well. I love it, and I think my Mistress would agree with me. It both frees us from responsibilities we’d rather not deal with. For me, a major one is finance. Because of my Mistress I don’t have to worry about money, (but I still do anyways). And likewise, I free her from a lot of the household work and math… XD
12 – Does your slavery and marriage mesh or clash? Why?
They kind of mesh together. I’m Mistress’s slave and boyfriend. They basically just are one and the same. I can’t really imagine it any differently.
13 – Is your master strict or laid back? Which style do you prefer?
Laid back, definitely laid back. I don’t think I could deal with a strict Master 24/7. Too much work. Not a fan of high protocol. I like to have time to relax and do whatever.
14 – Is slavery a role, a status, or both?
Role?
15 – How would you feel about living in a poly situation?
16 – How do you feel about your owner having outside relationships?
Mixed feeling. It would be very fun, in some regards. I’d rather just have a play-mate. Preferably female, but if I guy is cool enough he is ok too. iunno… I’ll always be my Mistress’ slave though. But anyways feeling are more along that other slaves line then the poly relation line.
17 – What’s the most important lesson you’ve learned so far?
The Cake is a Lie.
18 – What’s the most valuable asset you give to your owner?
Math and Cooking. XD
19 – What are the most notable changes/progression you have made in the last six months
Knowledge and skill. We’ve learned so much about kinky things. It’s awesome and Mistress is sooooo much better with rope, it makes me happy. We’ve also made lots of kinky friends and such.
20 – Where do you see yourself six months from now?
Relatively same location, physically in a different apartment. Still in school. Still with my Mistress. I really don’t want much to change right now. Wish I had more money, but other then that, I’m really happy with my life right now.
I typed 890 Words so Mistress can’t complain that I made this short!!!
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